I've decided I'm not going to let it bother me. I'm really going to miss having her in my life, but she was never really in my life that much anyway - I mean, who was I trying to kid? "Better Luck Next Time", I guess? Is that the phrase that applies here? I really don't think I'll ever meet a girl quite like her, but the new girl wouldn't even know it if I did. I'd be somebody she'd say, "Hey," to once; and she'd be somebody that I couldn't stop thinking about and couldn't stop talking myself out of not being to stop thinking about her and could never bring myself to say anything more than, "Hey," back.
My point being, I realized there's a whole lot more going right for me in my life. I've embraced the fact that I'm good at drawing cartoons, not art. In a couple years, I'm shipping off to California to CalArt to learn how to make something of this talent. And if that falls through, there's always the band. H.H. and I are all the solid foundation we need to go somewhere with The Epitome Of Eureka, Lord knows I've got enough songs and he's got enough enthusiasm. And if that falls through, Ohio isn't such a bad state to live in. There's Wright State Lake Campus right down the road, I could stay at home and not pay room or board and not tearfully say goodbye to my parents until I'm 23. And if that falls through, there's always that series I'm writing that I've yet to finish the first book of. Having no job, no school, and no friends would definitely free up some time to get those four novels pounded out.
And if that falls through, there's always the Sko-Bo match I'm going to with good company. I don't think some of them would call me their friend, but I would call them all my friends. I'm going to enjoy today, because such a simple plan can't fall through.
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